Well, coming back at 5.45am last night from the Ministry was a crazy turn of events.
I guess what's fun about hitting the club is that everyone within your age group and generation is just so friendly and fun-loving that it becomes entirely easy to walk out of the place, with a new friend in arms.
Yet ironically, all the more difficult to keep that friend simply because of the uncertainty of the situation. Would your paths cross again? Would you meet again? Where would either of us go from here?
For me, my definition of fun is to get to know as many people as possible. However, I would admit, and I'm not afraid of doing so, that my greatest flaw (or flaws) would come whenever I try to make conversation. It just seems so difficult for me now to make a simple conversation intellectual that it makes it seem like I pass off for a highly boring person. I could potentially blame it on the fact that my daily routine doesn't involve much change or variety because I work with the same people everyday. I coach the athletes from various teams and I talk to the same people and most of it is job-specific talk. Therefore all that banter about what the latest shopping hotspot is or taking to heart how people carry out their shopping in a certain way for some reason just doesn't strike an interest to me.
It really doesn't. And I guess that's where I lose out. Because when people take detail in such insignificant issues, I just don't bother. Force of habit I choose to think of it. What deepens the impact is the presence of a stigma in the level of education one may have against another. For example, I MAY or MAY NOT be with a group of friends who possess a degree, or are enrolled in an undergraduate study course but it is difficult for me to put a voice in anything once people know that I come from a local polytechnic. Well, I'm just hoping that prejudice changes. Soon.
It is natural for normal human beings like me to look up to those with higher qualifications. A masters, an MBA, an MS or even a Ph.D.
Some study law, engineering, business etc. The mainstream stuff that everyone pursues. Herein lies the crux of it all. I feel so low because no one seems to appreciate the fact that a degree in sports science is credible. Some even think I'm choosing to specialise to early in life and some tell me that I'm bound to be a 'PE TEACHER' but my answer to that is No, because there is a need for good coaches and in case you havn't noticed, the field of sports science is what drives the sports industry. Here are the unsung heroes who go unnoticed simply because they are constantly behind the scenes. And yet, a lack of sports scientists still prevails.
I'm just tired of being ignored and being judged as mediocre because people get the impression that what I'm studying now will lead to a low-paying job. The fact of the matter is, I want to do something that I know can and will benefit to a greater cause. It's job security I'm after all. The high-rolling pay is only secondary. Not to be blind, I do realise that the standard of living in Singapore is very high. If you don't have the right amounts of money, one probably wouldn't survive, as so many others say. Yet, have any of you paused to wonder what would happen if everyone had the same money-farming mentality, JUST to stay on top; or even worse, to prove that they are?
I just need my friends. People who can truly understand what I do. Trust me, I understand you, those around me. Perhaps I need to talk more. Or at least learn how to.
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
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