Enough is Enough. I've received enough verbal abuse, I've received enough negative perceptions ever since we broke up. I never used your name on my blog in such a manner but Shannon, if you want to decide that the two messages I sent to you last night after you played me out last night made you angry and PISSED you off, it's seriously about time you question whether your actions are right. Of course, I don't have a right to scold you if you didn't do anything wrong. But what made you think that I was scolding you??
I took the effort to ask you to come to church with me, so that I could see you just once.
I took the effort to ask you to come to church, so that I could get my items back (one book belonging to my older sister)
And you sounded happy about it. You sounded OKAY with it. And then I get stood up, played out, shoved aside and ignored and suddenly I become a bad guy and a "SAINT"? Wake up Shannon! I really don't want to play games anymore.
If you think you ARE that mature, then why didn't you just hand me back what was needed and avoided this whole situation? I'm really not as incompetent as you think I am (in case you havn't been understanding the kind of entries I write); because for one, Ever since we left, I have been going through an entire series of emotions, trying to compose myself and to find the right person within me.
I accepted the fate of things and let you be. I never IN ANY WAY, intruded into YOUR new life, nor did I prod into it. Treat you like a puppet or a pup? Aren't I entitled to my rights? Let me ask you, who's items do you think you're holding then? I need my tracksuit as a formality when I go for technical meetings and ceremonies in competitions, I have to return my sister her book because SHE was the one who bought it, therefore it is rightfully hers. And the medals..why don't you ask yourself what you're going to do with them? Throw them away? If you did, why would you do it? Because you hate me now? That would be VERY foolish. And by the way, if you really think you are mature, then you would at least spare a thought for me and hand them back to me as well.
You were expecting me to change, but change to what? I have a goal in life to accomplish, I have targets to hit and a future carreer I want to focus on. My character NEEDS to focus. You were with me for FIVE months babe, you know how intense I get. But I never showed violence to anyone around you and anyone you knew.
And I know my rights just as you know yours. I dont' want this to turn into a ridiculous unecessary dispute about personal rights but when push comes to shove, I think you have to understand where to draw the line. I didn't deserve such an entry from you this morning but I feel that you've crossed the line.
I want YOU and ALL your friends who're reading this to understand the truth about things. I have never hidden anything about my life since we've parted and if you want to continue going on painting a picture about me which puts me in the wrong light, let them understand the truth about who you really are now and what you've done. If you "don't give a damn" as you put it, then it only means that you were the one who never changed; to accept the reality of that false pretense you live in, otherwise known as your current life.
This entry wasn't written with hate, it was written with the intention to make you understand that you're not helping the situation, and that I don't want to go on having to ask you for my things back. It is very tiring for me. So read this, and please come up with a compromise.
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
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